No! Maybe. Can I think about it and get back to you?

So this morning I said no to something.  I turned down a request.  No big deal.  I was asked to do something and I politely declined.  And then agonized over my decision for the next HOUR!

I wasn't questioning my decision to say no; oh no, I knew I should say no.  I believe my actual response was, " oh god no!"  My gut had my back.

So why did I spend the next hour, waiting for all the bad karma to rain down on my head, poised over the phone, talking myself down from calling back and saying Yes, I am so sorry, what was I thinking, of course yes!  Okay so I am being a tad dramatic here but you know what I mean.  Or do you?

Am I alone in my unbalanced inability to say no?  Is it a girl thing?

Of course I can say no to the things most sane people say no to : playing in traffic, grilled cheese vodka, letting vampires in your house.  But ask me to go out of my way, change my schedule, accommodate you and your friends.  I'm your girl.

 Don't get me wrong I like being able to say yes, to help out when I can.  I think we should all help each other whenever possible and do it because it is the right thing to do, not for brownie points.  And I do say yes............... a lot.  So given that, why, why, why is it so hard to say no?

Today's last word goes to George Carlin ~ " Just cause you got the monkey off your back, doesn't mean the circus has left town."

A Wish For International Women's Day

I wish there wasn't an International Women's Day, or a Child's day or Pride Week.

I wish the world had evolved to the place where we are all just human beings. Sexual beings, not gay, straight, bi, etc.  Spiritual beings, not Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Baha'i, etc. Respected beings, not master and slaves. Free beings not war lords and child soldiers.

I do not mean we should all be one homogenous lump.  Far from it I celebrate our diversity.  I am thrilled and inspired by it.  We should have our own beliefs and customs and rituals.  But mine aren't better than yours just because they're mine.

Maybe that's why I have never been much of a joiner.  Group mentality can all too easily become mob mentality.  Too easily become us against them.  Remember how George W Bush used that argument to rush  America into a war based on lies? I shouldn't just pick on poor George, all wars are started that way.

So today while you are standing in line for your half caff, extra hot, no foam, sprinkled with fairie dust, latte; think about all the women around the world,  many of them closer to home than you know, think of them just struggling to keep their families alive.

Yup I wish there wasn't an International Women's day.
Mexican proverb ~ The house does not rest upon the ground, but upon a woman.